Happy New Year! Wow I can’t believe another year has started. I never used to really think about this before but now that I am working for myself I am actually finding I am enjoying the process of looking back over 2016 of what worked, what didn’t and where I need to change my mindset. What I have discovered about myself is that I am still (and maybe always will do to some extent) carry around some limiting beliefs. These beliefs come in the package of “I’m not good enough”.
Over the years I have worked hard on this record that used to play in my head constantly. What I am discovering is that although I have done a lot of work to silence that record, there is still work to be done. I also never used to really think about what I wanted in life, OK maybe in very general terms, but not really specific, what do I really want my life to look like terms.
What I am learning is that because of my limiting beliefs, and the fact that I thought “I’m not good enough” I never really felt worthy enough to set down real goals so instead I kinda just floated through life hoping things would work out well. Not sure about how this works for anyone else but for me that didn’t always go so well and life would hit me over the head with something until I made a change. So, I would do the work make the change and then….. coast along no real direction until WHAM! Life happened again.
I have lived my life like that for years. What I am discovering now is that I have made so many changes that coasting just isn’t an option anymore but at the same time letting go of my limiting beliefs is also really scary. Lately I am feeling like I am in limbo land, I need to let go of the beliefs that are stopping me from moving forward however going back is also simply not an option either.
Along with the quilting, I also sell Mary Kay cosmetics, I have done this for 20 years in a very small way. Why haven’t I taken this further? Easy, I didn’t believe in myself so I stayed small. What I am realizing now in reflecting back over 2016 that although I am starting to venture out on my own, I am still thinking small. I am still trying to stay safe, but what is safe? Letting someone else who also has many limiting beliefs call the shots and dictate my life.
So 2017 is the year I need to really make some changes. I am in the process of setting some big goals and one of those is to start thinking BIG! Feel the fear and do it anyway! I mean look how far I have come in 2016. I have started my own business, stepped out of my comfort zone in writing this blog and so many other ways. I have tried to go back, tried applying for jobs, and although I didn’t get the jobs I realized in the process that I really, really didn’t want to go back to that life anyway. One of the reasons I am not getting the jobs is that I am long passed playing the games. I am simply not willing to compromise myself to stay and look small because of someone else’s fears. I am not willing to work for someone I can’t respect. I know there are some who won’t agree with me on this one, but I have worked for some really fantastic people and some hmm not so fantastic, very fear based people and at this point in the game I am only willing to work for the fantastic ones. The ones who get that we are in this life together and there is enough for all and treating people with respect and dignity is the only way to get anything done.
So here’s to 2017 and making BIG scary goals!! Ones that stretch me outside of my comfort zone and keep me moving forward and out of limbo land.
So how about you? Anyone else making BIG goals this year? If yes, please share them in the comments as I would love to hear what they are.